On Notice

10/2/05

Gary mentioned something about regretting buying his ski boots, the very ones that he bought while on that trade show to Utah, that time when he was gone a LOT, and furthermore he’d not told me that he was staying over an extra day, just to ski, and then had bought those boots for $400—the very boots advertised in Sierra Trading Post for just under $300. Pretty foolish for him to bring THAT up, and all the associations for me. I told him as much. He remembers it as a “misunderstanding”. I remember it as an active deception.

So I gave him final warning. I told him that incidents like that, and the one yesterday merely increase my potential for an affair. I told him that I consider an affair on the table now, where it had been absolutely off the table before. I said if his feelings toward me had eroded to a point where he could easily speak to me the way he did yesterday and other times, then I could say that my feelings toward him had eroded to a point where an affair seems not just possible, but likely. Know what he did? He was reading the paper as I spoke to him. He’s still reading it now.

I certainly wouldn’t want to have an affair with x, now, though. Too much proximity to my realizing just what a false front this marriage is—it wouldn’t be worth dragging his marriage into it.

~ by kaleidoscoperefractions on July 14, 2008.